I breathed you
at the piano.
A baby grand
Beside your bed
A presence
For any baby…
In asylum from my light,
I savoured of your darkness,
an intoxicating
dizzying melody
of promise, linked to every other promise,
since forever.
Surrendering…more.
To the minutes of madness
Looking into the blues
while you played me your blues,
embracing a rupture
that would too soon, undo me.
Breathing…more.
As you tenderly caressed keys
that moments before
thrust between my legs
played the ballad of Holy Me.
Moments… more.
When
both cracked open,
partly hidden in the shadows,
lay the sanctified We,
our circuit lights flickering
electrifying dark
Holding until I died
Kissing until raw
I tucked my arms through yours,
as placeholder,
to a hidden chamber in your heart,
Craving temporary refuge.
A brittle dinghy’s
shelter in the chaotic storms
raging inside us both.
Knowing…
I would always be lost
in the See of Us,
swept away by ephemeral waves
of thick, muddy, dangerously deep longing.
Yearning…
For Love,
To linger
Long after
the melody.
Leaving…
Distance between the piano and the song,
And the wanting and the want,
The desire and desired
And lover and the loved,
measured by steps taken,
in exacting tenderness,
the sadness
of the one
who always
has to say…
Goodbye.